Attached To When

When engaging in our daily lives, there is a strong tendency for us to fixate on When something is going to happen for us.  We live in a frenetic, complicated and busy world and at times it can seem like the best approach is to attempt to control a little slice of it for our own peace of mind.  'If I just do this one thing then...' or if 'I can finally get this other thing then...' or 'I must achieve this by such and such a date...', have become common phrases for many of us.

However, when you look into Nature you don't see this occurring with the same constraint of attachment.  You see everything in movement and growth, but no When.  You see animals going about their lives doing much of the same things that we do - waking up, going out to find food for themselves and their family, playing, exploring, sleeping and going to bed again each day.  You see plants reaching for the sun, water flowing in its courses, rocks weathering the test of time and air continuously circulating around the Earth.  All of this occurs without a controlled schedule of When but it all happens.  There is a Flow of days, seasons and years created by the continuous movement of the planets but there is no Stop and no Resistance - there just is. 

When we fixate on When, what we are actually doing is attempting to Stop the Flow.  The illusion in our Mind is that When we actually get what we want we will have that 'peace' of mind.  When we close that deal and hit our number for the month, When we get the job that we 'always' wanted, When we solve or heal the problem, When we buy the house that we were saving for or When we loose the 10 pounds that we were 'just' trying to lose for 2 years, then we will be OK and we can rest!  Phew! :) But the reality is that there is always going to be another When and there is never going to be a real Stop.

The planets and galaxies will not stop their rotations (anytime soon) and everything in the world and Universe around us will remain in continuous movement and Flow.  Our job (or another one) will be there, we will likely move again, we will have more problems and we will likely gain a few more pounds back, and then lose them again.  We know this, and yet our fixated Mind immediately comes back to 'But I just need This one thing now' or I'll work on That later, etc., etc.

My suggestion for addressing this is to not turn away or try and pretend that you don't have some of these fixations but to acknowledge where you have the Whens in your life and ask yourself "Why do I?" 

As examples:

 - Why do I need to hit my numbers to be at the top of the leader-board for the month?

 - Why do I want a new job?

 - Why do I the new house?

 - Whey do I want that relationship?

 - Why do I need to heal or fix this problem?

 - Why do I want to loose 10 pounds?

The hint and clue here is as much in the Why? as it is in the 'I'.  Ask yourself if these are really your goals.  Are you perhaps 'sharing' these goals with someone else (like a spouse, co-worker or family member) and 'riding along on their coat-tails?'  Are these Whens things that you were taught earlier in life and now believe are your own?  Who in your life wants you to have these Whens? Whether it be in our jobs, our family or friends - attachment to When is everywhere around us.  Seeing it for ourselves if often the challenge.

However, the great thing is that each and every When is an opportunity to learn more about ourselves so that we can consciously Choose what it is that we really want.  By noticing the attachment to the When, we then have the opportunity to let it go.  In doing so we leave more room and energy for that which our True Self really wants to do.   And, when we are doing what we really want to do, it feels timeless and it is Flow - there is no Stop and no Resistance.  We are in tune with Nature and the rhythm of the Universe.  There is no suffering and there is no When, there is just right here, right NOW.

Just take a minute to remember what it feels like to do something that you really love to do ... fun, easy, exciting, peaceful, joyful... true bliss.  It is that vibration that will guide you as you ask yourself whether you really need the When.... or Why.  

All the Best,

Whitney

© 2012 All rights reserved, Whitney Merrill

"To say 'I Love You', one must first be able to say the 'I'.  - Ayn Rand

Stormy Weather

The sun doesn't shine every day. Sometimes it rains a tiny bit, and sometimes is pours. And sometimes it just looks like it might, and never quite gets there. It's cold and windy and it feels like you might get dumped on at any minute... but it doesn't.

Sometimes, this is even more difficult than having it actually rain, and getting totally soaking wet. Like watching a suspenseful movie and being on-edge because you have the feeling that at any moment that something's going to jump out at you. Makes you want to close your eyes and hide yourself away.

But it's the Contrast of life that makes it all real and wonderful. If every day were mild, predictable and sunny we probably wouldn't appreciate them very much after a while. Isn't it always the beautiful day after a period of dreariness that we remember - and the longer the period of dreariness, the more wonderful the sun?

So, what if you were to really dig into the Contrast, getting up close and personal without any blinders on? Rather than staying inside and waiting for the clouds to clear, what if you were to stand out on the cliff of life with your face into the wind just daring the clouds to 'bring it on'. What might that look and feel like?

It might be a bit scary at first...

... and it make take some adjustment until you get properly oriented to the weather, work on your footing and get firmly grounded.

Also, with a good blow, you might have to get your back up...

















... and have to really lean into it!

The Contrast of Stormy Weather - how will you know that you don't like it if you haven't tried it before!?

All the Best,

Whitney

© 2012 All rights reserved, Whitney Merrill

"If you understand, things are just as they are; if you do not understand, things are just as they are." - Zen proverb

A New Path

I started down A New Path the other day...

...it was a clearly marked and the way appeared to be straight and clear!

But then, an Adversary blocked my path and I had to wait for him to pass.

It started to get a little darker...

...and darker...

...but I could still see the light filtering through.

Then my Path began to twist and turn...

...I had to cross over water...

...and under a barrier...

...but my Path eventually led me to the View from the Top!


My Energy spent, it had me ready to find some a place to Rest and Rejuvenate.

And remember what is truly important...

All the Best,

Whitney
© 2013 All rights reserved, Whitney Merrill

"An ant on the move does more than a dozing ox." - Lao-Tzu

Garage Sale

We had a garage sale the other weekend - releasing the old to make room for the new.  It is amazing what attachments we form in our lifetimes to 'stuff' and why.  For me, it is books - which I have found represent my attachment to my assimilation of knowledge and experiences.  I realized that I was holding onto these books, many of which I skimmed over while reading several simultaneously, so that I could potentially 'refer' back to them at a later date.

It's been 30+ years for those Tolkien books there in the picture and I promise you that I have never cracked the cover on those since I finished reading them in 6th grade.  The power of the experience of reading those books as a young boy had stayed with me my entire life - I do remember reading them and literally expanding my consciousness with each page.  Such creativity, imagination and magic - truly life changing for me personally.  And so, I held onto them.  And what is the harm in that?

Nothing really... other than the expansion of today, the new joy of assimilation, the experience of NOW, the book I'm reading today.  There will never be another first time reading The Hobbit, but there will be a first time experience of my next life changing book, story, moment or experience.  I want all of my focus and attention to be available for that experience so that I am as present as I possibly can be.

That is why I gave up my books even though I held onto them for many years... to make room for today.  Give it a try, you may never know what will happen next.... :)

All the Best,
Whitney
© 2011 Whitney Merrill All Rights Reserved

Pumpkins and Dogs

October 2011 Coastviews Magazine Cover
Photo by Whitney Merrill

Look Up

Redwood Sky - La Honda, CA

You're heads down, working hard, no stopping to 'smell the roses'.  Busy, busy all the time focused on getting ahead at work, trying to save for the college fund and for retirement.  Go, go, go -  run, run, run.  If you stop, you're a 'goner' and you'll sleep when you're dead right?

Seriously people, this is not sustainable - for you, for you family or for the environment around you.  And I know that you know it so we really don't need to go there now do we?  But, I would like to ask the simple question: what can you do about it for just yourself? (at the very least)

I've been looking at Google Earth pictures of our World recently - it is amazing what it available for us to See now.  You can see images pictures of people walking on a beach in Australia from a satellite shot on your iPad.  However, I realized that it had me looking down a lot - so I decided to Look Up.

I have found that there is a lot to be learned from looking at the sky.  The tops of trees swaying in the breeze, clouds traveling by, birds on the wing, the moon and planets in rotation and the conscious Universe expanding constantly beyond our view (and minds).  But more importantly, it makes you slow down.  There is just no way to Look Up without pausing for at least a few moments (unless you want to fall down)!

I suggest the following exercise for those of you having difficulty with your rate of speed of life - just look up once per day.  Whether it be when you're getting a cup of coffee, taking your lunch break or getting home from one of those busy, busy days at work - just Look Up, breathe and pause for a moment.  It is a nice view where you are right now, isn't it?  :)

All the Best,
Whitney
© 2011 Whitney Merrill All Rights Reserved

"I have seen slower people than I am--and more deliberate...and even quieter, and more listless, and lazier people than I am. But they were dead." - Mark Twain

Every Moment

Imagine what your life would be like if you were present to the fact that Every Moment was precious, sweet and wonderful.  

 

Where you felt like you were truly experiencing the world around you each day as you woke up, looking forward to new experiences and opportunities (including chocolate chip muffins).

Where every time the horses came by your backyard fence that you wanted to feed them carrots and say 'Hi Horsies!!' at the top of your lungs (no holding back at all).

Where you sometimes inspired, cajoled and persistently 'nudged' those around you to play, to laugh or to run along the beach (just because you could).

Where every tide pool was a magical world filled with yet unfound treasures, all waiting for you to notice them and wonder at their beauty (and give them funny names like Cashmools).

Just imagine what that would be like for you...now that you're all grown up.

(an Energetic Picture of you could be inserted right here)

I suggest that you give it a try (again), if just for one moment.  And remember - you are Wonder, you are Joy and you are Love - Right Now.

All the Best,
Whitney
© 2011 Whitney Merrill All Rights Reserved

"At the center of your being you have your answer; you know who you are any you know what you want." - Lao-Tzu