Monday, August 26, 2013

Thou Shalt



ON THE THREE METAMORPHOSES OF THE SPIRIT

Of the three metamorphoses of the spirit I tell you: how the spirit becomes a camel; and the camel, a lion; and the lion, finally, a child.
There is much that is difficult for the spirit, the strong, reverent spirit that would bear much: but the difficult and the most difficult are what its strength demands. What is difficult? asks the spirit that would bear much, and kneels down like a camel wanting to be well loaded. What is most difficult, O heroes, asks the spirit that would bear much, that I may take it upon myself and exult in my strength? Is it not humbling oneself to wound one's haughtiness? Letting one's folly shine to mock one's wisdom?...


Or is it this: stepping into filthy waters when they are the waters of truth, and not repulsing cold frogs and hot toads?   Or is it this: loving those that despise us and offering a hand to the ghost that would frighten us?

All these most difficult things the spirit that would bear much takes upon itself: like the camel that, burdened, speeds into the desert, thus the spirit speeds into its desert.  In the loneliest desert, however, the second metamorphosis occurs: here the spirit becomes a lion who would conquer his freedom and be master in his own desert. 

Here he seeks out his last master: he wants to fight him and his last god; for ultimate victory he wants to fight with the great dragon.  Who is the great dragon whom the spirit will no longer call lord and god? "Thou shalt" is the name of the great dragon. But the spirit of the lion says, "I will." "Thou shalt" lies in his way, sparkling like gold, an animal covered with scales; and on every scale shines a golden "thou shalt."


Values, thousands of years old, shine on these scales; and thus speaks the mightiest of all dragons: "All 
value has long been created, and I am all created value. Verily, there shall be no more 'I will.'" Thus speaks the dragon.  My brothers, why is there a need in the spirit for the lion? Why is not the beast of burden, which renounces and is reverent, enough?


To create new values -- that even the lion cannot do; but the creation of freedom for oneself and a sacred "No" even to duty -- for that, my brothers, the lion is needed. To assume the right to new values -- that is the most terrifying assumption for a reverent spirit that would bear much. Verily, to him it is preying, and a matter for a beast of prey. He once loved "thou shalt" as most sacred: now he must find illusion and caprice even in the most sacred, that freedom from his love may become his prey: the lion is needed for such prey.
But say, my brothers, what can the child do that even the lion could not do? Why must the preying lion still become a child? The child is innocence and forgetting, a new beginning, a game, a self-propelled wheel, a first movement, a sacred "Yes." For the game of creation, my brothers, a sacred "Yes" is needed: the spirit now wills his own will, and he who had been lost to the world now conquers the world.

 - from Nietzsche's Thus spoke Zarathustra

Coastside Walkers



Sweet Wahinis prepare for 40-mile trek by Whitney Merrill
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Lisa Mandelbaum. Photos: Whitney Merrill.
The Avon Walk for Breast Cancer in San Francisco this year includes a team of Coastside women preparing to make the 40-mile trek. You may have already seen them at Rock the Block or the farmers market — or out raising money via garage sales on the coast — as Team “Sweet Wahinis”reaches out to the community as positive and powerful representatives of the cause. All team members have personal stories as to why they are so committed and engaged, but they all received some additional impetus when their team leader, Lisa Mandelbaum, was diagnosed with breast cancer earlier this year.
As Mandelbaum says on her Avon Walk page: “I was fortunate. I caught my cancer at stage 0. I had an amazing medical team and tremendous support from my loving friends and family. As I begin to come through my own medical journey, I realized that it indeed takes an enormous amount of resources to move through a cancer diagnosis and treatment.” This new understanding was one of the reasons why Mandelbaum chose to walk and raise money for breast cancer — but she also has a unique perspective due to running her own wellness practice, Coastside Healing Arts in Half Moon Bay.
Team Sweet Wahinis garage sale fundraiser
Plenty of items at the Team Sweet Wahinis garage sale fundraiser.
Mandelbaum refers to herself as an integrated practitioner, where the combined efforts of an oncologist, acupuncturist, nutritionist and relaxation practitioner all work together to assist the patient. Describing herself specifically as the “holder of space for the end people,” she says that she gets a lot of “end” people: those who are often at the end of their medical line and who are weary, frustrated, tired and skeptical. “Our treatment method of chemotherapy is a brutal treatment,” she notes; she says the focus of her wellness practice is in “building up the body and keeping a clean ‘terrain.’”
Nancy Strachan West, Lisa Mandelbaum, Gretel Merrill and Laura Burtness
Nancy Strachan West, Lisa Mandelbaum, Gretel Merrill and Laura Burtness raised over $600 at their garage sale in El Granada.
Mandelbaum says that some people just panic and often hand over their treatment entirely to medical professionals without fully informing and empowering themselves. “When you’re given a diagnosis, you don’t have time to ‘dance’ — no space … you just want it out of you.” She notes the high cancer rates in the Bay Area and potential contributing factors such as the environment, stress and nutrition. “I practice what I preach with nutrition and exercise, but also became more informed on meditation, stilling the mind and making space. I was not stilling enough,” she says.
Whimsical sign at the Team Sweet Wahinis fundraiser
Whimsical sign at the Team Sweet Wahinis farmers market fundraiser.
Mandelbaum focuses her practice on the various modalities that include acupuncture, herbs, needling, massage, nutrition counseling and lifestyle coaching. She also refers to Chinese philosophy where cancer is referred to as a phlegm condition or “the cause of a thousand diseases.” In Chinese medicine a tumor is created when chi doesn’t move or is not flowing properly, so her work is to essentially “move the chi via herbs and needles.”
As of early July, Team Sweet Wahinis was at 94 percent of its fundraising goal. “We each have our reasons for participating — whether it’s a personal fight with breast cancer, the struggle or loss of a loved one, or a deep commitment to the cause. We’ve each made a big commitment. We’ll spend the next few months training to prepare for a walk of up to a marathon and a half. Each team member is required to raise at least $1,800 in donations. But because we’re in this together, we know that, with your help, we can do it,” says the team’s Web page.
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Walkers boost their immune systems by stocking up on organic sustenance from the farmers market in preparation for the walk.
The team members’ comments, and their fundraising Web pages, speak to their individual commitments and inspiration. Laura Burtness says on her page: “Team Sweet Wahinis were fundraising at a crowded local activity and we had the big guns out — ukelele, tip jar, leis, pink tulle skirts, singing — we’ll do anything for a dollar. A woman passed by and put a dollar in my festooned tip jar. ‘I’m a two time survivor,’ she said. ‘Then we will definitely be walking for you,’ I responded. She looked right at me and, as she turned to merge back into the crowd, mouthed, I know.” Burtness says that she got chills and this pushed her over the edge. “There is power in knowing that you’re remembered,” she says.
Nancy Strachan West’s page speaks to those that she is honoring: “I am walking for Grandmother Harrington, L. M, L. M, L. C., L. G, L. Y, L. K, and so many other wonderful women I know/knew who have had breast cancer. No one is immune from cancer. It cuts across all races, ages, socioeconomic backgrounds. I have always donated to the cause, but this year felt that I wanted to do something more. So I have decided to walk! The training will be fun. I hope to get out with my dogs every day, and also walk with my friends here in HMB.”
Lezlee Miller’s Web page talks about her own decision to walk: “Personally I am astounded to say that over 20 women I know, both relatives and friends, have been diagnosed with breast cancer. Of those, three have lost their lives. Professionally I perform mammography and have witnessed many women receive this devastating diagnosis; it is overwhelming and painful for them and their families. I am walking to raise funds in memory of those lost lives, in honor of those surviving friends and family, and to make a difference for my patients.”
There is seriousness and commitment with the team combined with a sense of humor and lightness as they prepare for the event. Barbara Nielsen tells those who ask why she is walking that “I’m doing it for the right reasons.” Gretel Merrill is preparing and pushing herself with 11-mile training walks. Norma Avery, who walked 60 miles with Mandelbaum last year, smiles when she talks of training and says, “I’m relying on muscle memory!” And Mandelbaum says: “Walking like this makes you feel empowered. … We’re all doing a common thing.”
This year, the San Francisco Avon Walk for Breast Cancer is being held on Sept. 28-29. Walkers will cross the Golden Gate Bridge and weave through San Francisco neighborhoods including North Beach and Pacific Heights; the walk will pass famous landmarks including Fisherman’s Wharf, the Ferry Building, and the Presidio. Registration is still open and the Sweet Wahinis would love your support — either moral support or donations.


Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Green Fueling on the Coast


Green Fueling on the Coast



by Whitney Merrill
Biodiesel “magic” under the hood
Biodiesel “magic” under the hood. Photos: Whitney Merrill.
April 2013—Dave Eck and his wife Ginny just returned from a weekend trip to Pismo Beach in their custom-built RV, and they didn’t stop for gas even once. In fact, if you recently had a meal at one of the local restaurants in Half Moon Bay, it’s likely that your meal subsidized part of their trip — so “thank you” on behalf of our local economy and also on behalf of the Ecks. They look like they had a great time in their fully refurbished, custom-designed 1971 Silver Eagle luxury coach that burns fuel at about 4 miles per gallon, so it’s really nice of you to help them out!
Dave Eck
Dave Eck.
If you haven’t guessed it already, what we’re talking about is the use of biofuel — and in particular, biodiesel. The reuse and recycling of cooking oils from local Coastside restaurants into a fuel is what powers the Ecks’ coach and a number of the vehicles at the family business of Half Moon Bay Auto Repair. Eck buys the cooking oil directly from Coastside restaurants and converts it into biodiesel via a mini-refinery on-site at his business. He’s been doing this for 15 years, even when the gas prices were lower. Eck says: “It’s not just about the cost savings. The reason I’m doing it is because it’s a cleaner-burning fuel.” He adds that biodiesel produces less black smoke and has more power.
The process starts with finding what Eck calls a “really good product” — cooking oil from a local restaurant that uses high-quality oils with no trans-fats and changes the oil every day. He picks up the oil himself from pre-installed storage tanks, pays the restaurants for their oil, and also pays the state 16 cents per gallon road tax. This oil is then converted to biodiesel by adding some chemical agents including potassium hydroxide and sulfuric acid, drying it to removing the water and moisture, filtering it, and then removing and recycling the by-product of the reaction — the glycerin used in some soaps.
The green-fueling lab
The green-fueling lab.
Eck describes this as a fairly non-toxic process and says that he isn’t required to have a license to make biodiesel. He has a number of storage and drying tanks, a machine that mixes the chemical agents, and a bunch of testing equipment that looks a bit like a biology lab — but he’s quick to point out that the process is fairly simple and low-tech. “A person could get everything they need to do biofuel and do it out of a 50-gallon drum,” he says. There is also extensive information in the form of biodiesel home-brew guides and kits available on the Internet. A number of federal tax incentives for biodiesel use are currently in place and promoted by the U.S. Department of Energy.
luxury biodiesel Silver Eagle coach
The luxury biodiesel Silver Eagle coach just back from Pismo Beach.
Some of the other benefits of using biodiesel are the resulting reduction of greenhouse gases and the environmental benefit of recycling. Since Eck is recycling oil that has already been produced and transporting it locally, the net carbon output is very small, and he is reusing something that would normally take additional energy to dispose of or recycle completely. “I feel really good about it because I’m doing something good for the environment,” says Eck. “I’ve really been into being green, and at the shop I recycle everything.”
Eck is also very proud of this custom RV that he has lovingly restored and equipped with a full stainless steel refrigerator, flat-screen TVs, full kitchen, hardwood floors and a full master bath and bedroom. And “it goes down the road like a pillow … it’s so smooth,” Eck says. He’s worked with the Cabrillo school system for years, works on motor homes in his business and has a true passion for transportation and freedom. His RV is a labor of love: “To take something from the ground up, you’re building something that’s worth building,” he says. In his case he’s built more than a custom RV — he’s built a system and a process by which he can be fully independent of fuel supply and costs, thereby providing more flexibility and freedom for himself and his business.
The green-fueling lab
The green-fueling lab.
But there’s one more reason for using biodiesel, Eck says: “The real reason I’m doing this is because I am ready for an earthquake. I’m off the grid and I have three backup generators.” Pointing to a map of the U.S. on his fridge showing all of the places that he’s visited, Eck notes that he can travel for hundreds of miles with his coach and its large storage tanks, all with a green and renewable process. With his “refinery” and his bus, he’s ready to hit the road at any time and he feels prepared for the future, whatever that may bring. Eck sums up with what sounds like his personal motto: “When you’ve got your own fuel, you can go places.”
On the Web:
www.afdc.energy.gov/laws/laws/US/tech/3251

Friday, February 22, 2013

Preschool Yoga


Even preschoolers get busy these days and need to take a break to quiet the mind and rejuvenate.

I see it as both a sign of the times and a heads-up that we are 'moving in the right direction' that they have Yoga @ pre-school!


All the Best,
Whitney
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Monday, October 8, 2012

Pumpkin Cover

It's Pumpkin season in Half Moon Bay, CA and the above pic was on the cover of Coastviews Magazine this month and features my son Zander pulling the daughter (Eva) of good friends of ours.  They also visited again this past weekend and took a few more pics - who knows... maybe one of these will be next year's cover! :)




All the Best,
Whitney
© 2012 All rights reserved, Whitney Merrill

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Sunday Morning Special: Folk music in Half Moon Bay

Coastviews Magazine Article

by Whitney Merrill
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Lighthouse String Band Members (L to R): Dave Sahn, guitar; Raymond Tsang, fiddle; Helen Tsang, mandolin; Cyndi Menzel, hammered dulcimer; and Mary Maguire, bodhrán (Irish frame drum). Photos: Whitney Merrill.
September 2011— Community means many things to many people — but at Blue Sky Farms in Half Moon Bay on a foggy coastal morning it smells like coffee and fresh-baked pastries, tastes like a mouth-watering breakfast, and sounds like lively folk music from the Lighthouse String Band. The cold mist outside is watering the nursery plants, but inside the cafe it is warm and cozy as friends, neighbors and visitors enjoy music that draws out smiles. Beautiful images of California native landscape designs are on display, and talk of water conservation, green building practices and coastal sustainability are typical coffee-chat conversations in this unique coastal community that has formed over the past few years. This community is what Ken and Sally Coverdell have created with a little patience, focus and attention to the environment.
In 1977, the Coverdells bought a 2.5-acre coastal farm next to Nurserymen’s Exchange on Route 1 in Half Moon Bay. After running their Blue Sky Designs landscape company for many years, they were inspired to build a retail location, Blue Sky Farms nursery, across the highway from their farm. What started out as a simple barn project eventually took almost three years; the results became a model for green building on the coast, earning the Coverdells a water conservation award. After adding the coffee shop and kitchen, the barn quickly transformed into a restaurant — and the restaurant became a community focal point for the Miramar section of Half Moon Bay as neighbors began gravitating to the cafe. Sally gets up at 3:30 a.m. to do the baking and cooking because “plants can wait, but food service can’t.” Ken says, “Now that we have the cafe, we’ve met everyone” and points out several items in the barn that have been donated by neighbors.
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Dave Sahn repairing a broken guitar string.
And met everyone they have, whether it’s chatting with the band members about their music, discussing water conservation with a local board member, teaching about recycling and composting, or providing advice to community members about how to balance beauty with conservation. “We’re passionate about water,” Ken says, noting that a little bit of patience, planning and thought can make all of the difference in landscape design. “People are often buying on impulse and want instant gratification. We’re focused on California natives, not just instant color.”
It is this type of environment that prompted members of the Lighthouse String Band to inquire a few years ago if they could practice their music at the cafe; they could indeed, and eventually wound up adopting the cafe as their regular Sunday morning gig. The Coverdells were more than excited. Ken says the band plays “the happiest, most loving music I’ve ever heard in my life.” And Sally adds: “So many families look forward to coming with young kids. They come inside, the windows steam up and people start smiling.” Raymond Tsang, one of the founding members of the band, says: “This is our favorite place to be. We try to promote Irish, Celtic and American folk music and we want to be on the coast, and on the coast there is not too much folk music.”
The band has a unique combination of vocals and instruments that include the fiddle, mandolin, guitar, bouzouki, hammered dulcimer, and bodhrán —an Irish frame drum. Whether the performance is out in the sun of the nursery garden or inside on a cozy morning, children dance around and friends, neighbors and visitors chat and smile.
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Blue Sky Community: Lighthouse String Band members with Raymond Tsang, Cyndi Menzel and Helen Tsang with Ken Cloverdell.
The band has been together since 2009 and performs at several other coastal venues, including the local farmers markets. The band members — Robin Fish, Mary Maguire, Dave Sahn, Helen Tsang and Raymond Tsang (with Cyndi Menzel currently standing in for Robin Fish) — are also passionate about supporting their local community; 50 percent of their tips go to the San Mateo food bank. The band members who live nearby can often be found at the cafe when not playing, enjoying both the nursery’s plants and the cafe’s food. Tsang says: “Everything that I got from here stays good and healthy. … And the pecan roll is a killer; I’m addicted to it!”
Blue Sky Farms is located at 3068 N. Cabrillo Highway in Half Moon Bay, and can be reached at 650-726-5999.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Risk Mitigation for the NOW


I was recently doing research for an article on Northern California beaches and I came across this sign in Santa Cruz.  Pretty daunting, eh?  Makes you wonder why anyone would get in the water to go surfing or swimming.  But they do... and it got me to thinking about taking risks - why we do it and how do we mitigate against them in the face of uncertainty.  
 
Why do we take risks and what's really in it for us?  The common understanding is that we take risks in order to get to something that we feel we'll enjoy or something that will benefit us - essentially the whole risk/reward notion.   For example, surfers will brave the great white sharks hunting for seals off of the waters of Nor Cal because they love the experience of surfing the waves - for them the reward outweighs the risks.  And for those who may not be fully aware of the risks involved, they're super clearly outlined for them on the sign above. :)

But what about those situations where the 'sign' is not as obvious and the risks are not clearly known?  How do we make choices and move forward in the light of uncertainty?  We see something that we may want to 'try' but how do we know that we'll even like it or that it will benefit us.  There is an 'up-front' risk and our risk/reward guide doesn't know how to calculate it properly... so we freeze and the energy stops flowing.  If this happens repeatedly it can even become a recurring pattern of fear, limiting us from the full experience of life - no waves, no hang 10, no fun... real bummer dude.
 
One potential strategy for moving forward is to seek to mitigate the risk and in doing so shift the balance of the risk/reward equation in our favor.  This is where the potential upside (even though unknown) would still be perceived as greater than the risk because that risk has been minimized to make the 'math' work.  It does take a bit of negotiation but with a little practice it really can be achieved in most situations.  I know, because my wife and I try it with our son most evenings at the dinner table trying to get him to try something new to eat that he's never had before (his risk that it will taste yucky) by using some form of reward (dessert = something he knows he likes). :)
 
The difference with adults is that risks are very often 'thrust upon' us and risk mitigation is something that we usually have to practice by ourselves (no parents to guide us at the dinner table).  Whether it be a new project or role at work, making a new dinner recipe for your family, engaging socially with a new group, going in for the first kiss or trying surfing for the first time, we're confronted with risk situations almost daily.  We don't know if the reward will be worth it and the risks of failure (especially for a first time experience) appear to be fairly large - how do we mitigate these situations daily so that we are able to move forward and grow?
 
The strategy that I'll offer up today is a simple one - go to what you love and go to where you are strong when approaching a risky situation.  Realize that you don't have to take on ALL of a huge unknown risk today - you can scout it out and add to your knowledge base one activity at a time.  You may feel that you do have to brave the sharks, the cold water, the undertow, large waves and eroding cliffs all at once... but it's very rarely the case (it may just feel like it).  You could take each one on separately, mitigating the risk as you go along to see if the reward is really worth it - and enjoy the experience while you're at it.
 
So, as I sat looking at this sign I thought that perhaps there might be a better way to experience much of what was being offered but mitigate my risk in a way that worked for me and focused on what I loved and where I was strong - I came up with a risk mitigation plan that worked for me in the NOW.  Still some risk but something I could work with today and keep me moving forward:
 





 

All the Best,
Whitney
© 2012 All rights reserved, Whitney Merrill