Cape Cod - Eastham, MA at low tide |
However, when I look at this picture I am instantly transported back to the warmth of the evening summer sun and can feel the water on my feet as I wade through the tide pools with my son looking for treasures in the sand. My body is here in the Autumn going to winter but my mind and spirit are living in the past of Summer. I am in two places at once, split in time and not really in either one. I can feel myself not fully engaged in my Autumn and longing for what seems just a picture away…'Danger Will Robinson!!'
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Source: Lost in Space, 60's TV Show |
The reason that the space robot alert is needed here is because getting caught in the in-between space between the present and the past is a sure-fire way to have you end up permanently in the past…which severely limits your future. You end up moving forward in life trying to re-create or re-hash or re-work or re-omptimize or re-emphasize or re-live the past…and you never really can. It burns up tons of energy, takes your focus away from enjoying the present and keeps you eternally frustrated and sad for what it just out of reach.
Oh sure, you can try (BTW, I'm already planning our next summer vacation in Cape Cod with my family) but it will never, never be the same last last summer. For one thing, my son will be 8 instead of 7 and as I have found, he's growing up quick and I can barely keep up with how fast he is becoming a young man vs. a little child. Who knows, he could be quoting me from Lost in Space next year after watching it on YouTube now that I've posted this BLOG. It just will not be exactly the same…no matter what I do or how hard I try.
So, where does that leave me? Do I frame the picture, put in on my desk, and look at it during every free minute at work so that it keeps me warm during the cold winter months? I'm hearing the caution from the space robot again so I'm going to hold on that…maybe just a screensaver? How about we go on a winter vacation to somewhere tropical…will that do the trick? Never seems to quite do the trick but could be worth a try?
What I do know is that I must find a way to get fully back to the present…and fast. My present is spinning past me and I'm not fully here. My son wants to go fishing with me right now (it's 6am) and I'm here on the computer writing a BLOG vs. being with him as he grows into a young man. Signing off now, will continue this on the next post!
All the Best,
Whitney
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